January Aims

1. Eat healthily - I've got to stop munching on chocolates, fizzy drinks, sweets, and crisps. They really aren't good for me. I tried being a vegetarian but I only eat 4 vegetables and I hate fish. 
2. Give sixth form a go - I may not be very enthusiastic about school but I need to give it a chance. The least I can do is get the best possible results and wait for it to be over.
3. Leave nice comments on social media and/or blogs.
4. Be kind to yourself.
5. Push myself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5am. Take a walk or go for a run to watch the sun rise.
6. Push myself to sleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. 
7. Stress less. Cry less over homework, over projects procrastinated and tests piling up; save up all those tears for laughter, for unbearable happiness. Be okay with less than perfect.
8.  Practice patience.
9. Listen to music everyday and try to learn the songs 
10. Begin yoga or meditation. Learn to reach for the sky as hard as I can when I stretch. 

Oprah

I'm late but I hope you don't mind, Ms Winfrey

I wanted to say happy birthday to you as you've done so much for us,

Your legacy will inspire several young black girls to follow your dreams as you did

Remembering where we came from but not forgetting where we are headed

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Ms Winfrey

I hope to meet you someday and let you know how much of an inspiration you've been to me

Maybe, I'll have something to show you and hopefully seek for some advice 

"I don't think of myself as a poor deprived ghetto girl who made good. I think of myself as somebody who from an early age knew I was responsible for myself, and I had to make good."

20 Things To Start Doing

             

1. Push myself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5am. Take a walk or go for a run to watch the sun rise.
2. Push myself to sleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. 
3. Get in the habit of having a delicious breakfast. One that's big healthy and beautiful. 
4. Begin yoga or meditation. Learn to reach for the sky as hard as I can when I stretch. 
5. Drink a lot of water.
6. Don't procrastinate. Fight the habit of putting things off til the last minute.
7. Live in a tidy space. Fold everything. Throw away things that you don't need or take them to charity. They might benefit someone else.
8. Don't dwell on the past but rather turn it into ART.
9. Push myself to go for a walk or a swim.
10. Stop the negative thoughts that you think about yourself or about others
11. Get back in touch with old friends. Reminisce. Do a catch up session even though I won't always be able to follow through.
12. Think long and hard about what interests and captivates me. There's bound to be a book about it. 
13. Enjoy the simpler and little things in life.
14. Challenge myself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. Then I will try a week.
15. Take to friends that have become acquaintances and acquaintances so they can become friends.
16. Listen to music everyday and try to learn the songs 
17. Go outside more...
18. Revise more. Try 8 hours a day. Have a positive mind so that I can do well.
19. Wear clothes that make me happy not caring what anyone else thinks
20. Remember that all the effort that I'm making now will pay off in the end. 

 

     

 

King Abdullah bin Abdulaziz

Sleep well, Your Majesty. 

Challenges for 2015 - Get Fit #1

My FIRST challenge for 2105 is getting fit. I love exercising. I might as well keep at it since I did it for GCSEs. This isn't about losing weight but rather being healthier and more active 

Hence for 2015, I'm going to do this 5 things: 

1. Exercise at least 3 or 4 times a week
2. Go running every other day
3. Start meditating for 30 minutes during the days that I don't go running
4.   Take up more sports and pick up my abandoned' sports again
5. Be patient with the results

Girls Workout Motivation  by Nike

It's time to get back into it.

How Bad Do You Want It?

MLK Day

"Life's the most persistent and urgent question is: What are you doing for others?"

He was a great one. 

Never mind that he did the time. He changed the lives of black people 

He wouldn't be proud of what's happening today.

I am proud to be BLACK. Thank you MLK!

We'll see you soon.

Remember...

wait, what? --> Post 2014 Thoughts

Shit, man.

I don't know what to do.

Honestly, I don't know what to do anymore though I feel as if I'm struck in an endless cycle

Frankly, as I finished secondary school; I came to the realisation that I was only friends with some people in school because I saw them 5 times a week

And I mean no disrespect when I say this but, fcuk dude; I know in those 5 years I was meant to learn some life lessons and get those friends that I'd care for life

But that's not what's happened

I honestly don't give a fcuk anymore because I no longer have the energy for meaningless friendships, forced interactions or unnecessary conversations

I mean it out the kindness of my heart, I feel as if I've had a fair and just life so far

I say that because I've tried to keep God in my life but not always succeed and sought forgiveness

However, I think I'm getting there because every day is a new day, therefore it's a new start for me

With friends, I think that being alone makes you stronger because I think it's probably the fact that I have siblings to give me advice on stuff like this

I know that the world is a shitty place and therefore it would be very nice every now and then to show humanity to those around you because we all need a little help every now and then

How do I stop caring about people who don't give a shit about me?

Isn't it weird that you can have friends but also have no friends at the same time?

In all honestly, I don't require much in life

All I'm looking for is having God in my life, happiness, peace and the comfort of family and friends

Recently the circle of friends has got smaller and I've been fairly understandable about it because people have shown their true colours

Secondary school was a BITCH at times but it has made me into someone strong and more independent

To classify and conclude, 

No, I don't have low self-esteem and I think that I have good taste in music

This summer is all about becoming my "true" self - whoever she is

I do realise that the repercussions of my actions have cost me relationships and I don't think I care anymore

I did what I thought was best at the time

I'm sick of people telling me to "get over it" because FCUK YOU!

You don't know what's going on in my head 

I've seen people lost interest in others and it has been gut-wrenching because it's one of the worst things ever 

I'm still trying to find that "word of phrase" of when you have friends but are still lonely

No worries, I'm perfectly fine or at least I think I am

Anyway, I will be but before I sign off, I'd like to say 

R.I.P to all the friendships where we once acted like lovers at some point, and now we barely talk

We only care to pass a meaningless glance across room and a "fake" smile

So if you come across me, please;

Don't tell me that it's just a phase, I've been sad for more than 4 freakin' years. 
Therefore, this is not "just a phase"

Right now I'm searching for knowledge

I'm searching for myself 

But mostly importantly, I'm searching for where I truly belong - God

This one of the few reasons I despise life because there's shit that's fcuked up but I also know that this too is an excuse 

So I don't want you to accept it

What I want you to know is that...

I only seek 4 things in life, I don't want much because I've been taught to work hard for what I want and that's what I will do

Open Letter To The Young

I Pose This Question

Question: Wouldn't It Be Hard To Find That Hitler Ended Up In Heaven?

We discussed this at church...and I thought that it would be interesting because what if he really did go to heaven. People say that Hitler did became saved/confessed his sins minutes before he took his own life. 

I don't know. I'm posing a question. All opinions are welcome.

Sunday Songs For The Lonely

I Will Follow You Into The Dark by Death Cab For Cutie

Covered by Kurt Hugo Schneider

 

Sanctuary by Paradise Fears

Take Me To Church by Hozier

Like I Can - Sam Smith

Jealous by Nick Jonas

Gospel Version

HAPPY SUNDAY! 

Je Suis Charlie

En Français

Le monde a été attristés par la nouvelle d'aujourd'hui. C'est une horrible façon de commencer une nouvelle année, mais nous vous assurons que les personnes concernées devront payer pour leur crime.

Nos prières sont avec les familles qui ont perdu les membres de ce tragique événement. Il est important. Bien qu'il n'y a rien de nouveau. C'est une journée terrible pour la liberté de parole.

Ces adieux que nous vous proposons sont malheureux et déchirante. Cet horrible événement a fait de la France et du monde beaucoup plus étroitement et plus forte, mais pas sans un coût. 


Repose en paix au 12 vies innocentes. Vous allez manquer solennellement.

In English


The world has been saddened by the news of today. It is a horrible way to start a new year, but we assure you that the people involved will pay for their crime.


 Our prayers are with the families who have lost members in this tragic event. It is important. Although there is nothing new. This is a terrible day for freedom of speech.


These farewells that we offer you are unfortunate and heartbreaking. This horrible event has done of France and of the world much more closely and more strong, but not without a cost. 

Rest in peace to the 12 innocent lives. You will be missed solemnly.

12 Striking Charlie Hebdo Front Covers - http://www.buzzfeed.com/lukelewis/charlie-hebdo-front-covers#.xhvdyvQQKy
22 Heartbreaking Cartoons From Artists Corresponding To The Charlie Hebdo Shooting -http://www.buzzfeed.com/ryanhatesthis/heartbreaking-cartoons-from-artists-in-response-to-the-ch#.yvQM6077e6

#JeSuisCharlie

Life In A Day

Following from the 30 Challenges for 30 Days; I decided to start with no. 11 which is 'watch a documentary each day'. 

It's fairly easy as HighExistence gives you a number of incredible documentaries to watch throughout the 30 days. I was really moved by the Life In A Day documentary, which was my first documentary and I wanted to share it with you guys, so I hope you enjoy it like I did.

This is a documentary filmed by You. The people were asked 3 simple questions: 

1. What do you love?
2. What do you fear?
3. What's in your pocket?

My answers:

1. I love my life and everyone in it. 
2. I fear death. I fear losing the people in my life. I fear everything that crawls. Most of all I fear G O D
3. My pocket consists of Fresh Mints: Peppersmith, "Stop Aids" and Fender guitar picks and my phone.

2015 Resolutions

These are my first ever New Year's resolutions and as we all know that New Years are cliches of new starts and clean slates. But hey, there's nothing wrong with that. People call 'cliches' cliches because they know what they mean and how stubbornly accurate they are. Hence why I truly believe that New Years is about forgetting about all that crap, that's happened in the previous year and start with new things and people. It's a moment to reevaluate your life and change things that you would like if you please. In other words, New Years is a kick up our lazy asses. 

So here are my 2015 New Years resolutions:

1. Exercise more - I love my sports and it was deeply saddening when I gave them up to focus on my exams (probably a good idea at the time) but I forgot to pick them up again. So 2015 will be a time for fitness, where I pick up tennis, trampolining, swimming and running again. It's about being healthier.
2. Read, read, read, read - Seeing as I'm doing English, GovPols and History levels, I think reading would be a good idea. I've been so concentrated on reading subjects recommended books than my own that I've lost the love of being a book worm. Time to find it again starting with "You get so alone at time it just makes sense" by Charles Bukowski
3. Write more. Write more about everything and anything - I have so many ideas accompanied with a ton of procrastination. There's so much to write about so I need to get it out or it will eat me alive. I would also love to start some fashion posts too...maybe?
4. Guitar, Drums, Piano, Bass and Sing (maybe?) -  I actually have the ability to play all these instruments, it's just that I don't play them as much as I would like to. Especially the guitar, I've been playing the guitar for nearly 4 years now and I'm nowhere near the ability I would like to be. Consequently, I'm determined to play the guitar at least an hour a day every day for the rest of 2015 as it's my main instrument as well as improve on singing as it's my newest instrument.
5. Eat healthily - I've got to stop munching on chocolates, fizzy drinks, sweets and crisps. They really aren't good for me. I tried being a vegetarian but I only eat 4 vegetables and I hate fish. 
6.  Be patient. Be thankful. - So much shit has gone down in 2014 but I'm not the only one who's experienced bad things during it. I would like to learn to be more patient and more thankful as they are characteristics that I deeply admire. 
7. Pick up French and possibly Spanish again - One of my dreams in life is to become a polyglot. I have a huge desire for learning new languages and I really would like to become fluent in French. I've been studying it since year 5 but I've got nowhere, maybe I'll take another trip to France in 2015.
8. Learn to apologetically say no - I've been told that I'm too generous. I used to think that it wasn't bad but people have taken advantages of my generosity and I'm thankful to them because it's opened my eyes.
9. Learn how to save up - Independence is an aspiration of mine. I don't like asking my mum for everything but I have so many things I want to do and see that I've got to stop spending money on stupid things and earn for all those adventures. 
10. Travel more - Another one of my dreams. I can't stand staying in the same place. I want to travel more to see more sights, learn new things and experience new cultures.
11. Pick up my camera again - Photography is a hobby of me. One that I hope never to lose but lately I haven't been taking any more pictures and I feel lost.
12. Stop giving a shit about what others think of me and let them go - This used to be hard but I'm getting there. I think putting myself first more will really help me in my development of the person that I hope to be. Also, I grow too attached to people who end up leaving and I'm not putting myself through that in 2015. If you want to be in my life, make it happen but I'm not going to dwell on your empty presence waiting for you to come back.
13. Complete these 30 challenges - http://www.highexistence.com/30-challenges-for-30-days/
14. Meet more people - I love new surroundings and that comes with new people to meet as well. 
15. Take more chances - I've spent 2014 shying away from opportunities, it hasn't been good when I think of all the things I've missed by passing up those chances. I will be FEARLESS in 2015.
16. Less - talking, planning, complaining, worrying, doubting, lazing around, frowning, insecurity, ignorance and weakness.
17. More - listening, doing, encouraging, faith, believing, smiling, confidence, understanding, love and gratitude
18. Give the sixth form ago - I may not be very enthusiastic about school but I need to give it a chance. The least I can do is get the best possible results and wait for it to be over.
19. Go to more concerts - This is simple. Music keeps me sane. I am a music student.
20. Learn new recipes - My brother once said: "the only reason people learn to cook is because they want to be fat." I don't think he meant it in a bad way, though.
21. Never lose faith - I still learning this...

Now I do realise that this seems like a lot but I'm pretty sure that I can achieve them all. I will cross off the ones that I've achieved. See you soon 2015 :)