So as 2013 is coming a draw and I've seen several of my friends make a 16-second video about some of their most memorable moments of this year. While some have written eulogies (which I think I'm doing...) I wanted to make some random remarks about 2013 and what I will or might do for 2014. This is totally honest, so if you disagree; feel free to do so.
London
2013 has been an alright year, as so have the rest of they years before it. I mean when I'm told, to sum up, my year; I will often use words such as these: Shit, Crap, seriously F'ed Up!, Alright, could have been Better, Great... Why? Because I have this conspiracy that there will always be a good and bad side to every year, just like there's Good and Evil in the world. Therefore I don't like giving myself hope that things will be better even if I do believe that but somehow fail to believe it as well.
Moscow
When it comes to me, I'm seriously a hard person to comprehend. I don't like pitying myself about stuff like life is rough and the world is against me because everyone feels like that once in a while. I'm just me. I'm a typical person. I'm just like everyone else. There are so many things that I want to leave in the past because 2013 has been somewhat of a crappy year. I've lost and gained like everyone else in the world. I've loved and failed like everyone else. Therefore shutting people out because I've come to believe that being open and vulnerable is stupid advice people give you, just to hurt you.
Malaysia
So there you go. That's my summary for 2013. As the year has passed, I have come to realize that there were some good times and bad times. However I'm not one to dwell on the past because I know from first hand what that can do to you, I'm slowly trying to recover from all the heartaches that 2013 has caused and it will be better soon. I promise.
Hong Kong
As well for 2014, I don't have much to say but a few words.
Japan
"I'm doin' whatever the fuck I wanna do this year." Asap Rocky
Australia
"If there's something on my mind, speak it. I got a big mouth. I can't help it. I talk from my heart. I'm real." Tupac
New Zealand
I'm immune to this whole new year, new me bullshit.
2013 is officially coming to a close. And while it's delivered some great things and lost some great people, we have also learned lots of new things that we will hopefully take into 2014.
4 things that I'm thankful for:
God. For everything and every day!
My friends and family for their continuous support throughout every step of the way
The new people that have come into my life and hopeful their presence will affect me positively
The future. Though I have no idea what's in front of me, I'm thankful that I'm able to have something to aim for.
2 things I'm living in the past:
The people that have made no difference in my life except put me down and judge me
The PAST...
4 things I'm looking forward to in 2014:
Turning 17 :)
Finishing high school
Making new relationships
Having fun even more and growing as a person, daughter, sister, friend etc
So it's last day on earth and you're asked, "who are the last two artists you want to listen to before the aliens invade?" (That's if there's another form of life other than us!) Don't blame me for having an overactive imagination, so who are the last two artists you'd listen to.
TUPAC SHAKUR
California Love
Coachella 2012
Hit Em Up
Only God Can Judge Me
JIMI HENDRIX
Foxey Lady
Hey Joe
Angel
All Along The Watchtower
. Who did you choose? I chose Tupac and Hendrix because I feel like their music is able to explain my every emotion, no matter what mood I'm in. These are artists that I constantly look for inspiration when it comes to my music and they do help. It's a tragedy that I'll never get to meet them.
I'm yours and you know it. We tried and failed. We should've seen it coming but we didn't. I'm sorry for this. I'm really am. I know that we are used to telling each other everything. We love challenging each other because it brings out the best in us. But we've slipped through each other's fingers and we aren't in sync anymore. I will miss you.
I'm afraid that once I let go, I'll never be able to find you causing me to lose myself. I'm afraid that once we go our separate ways, I'll be alone again which will destroy me completely.
I'm don't think that I speak much about my roots but I definitely enjoy blasting out the music! So I thought I would invite you in a bit and share a bit on me with you; which will come more in 2014 as well.
They say that when you first hear of death, it hits you like a ton of bricks
It almost seems like the impossible is suddenly possible and it's staying there
Though the death of a loved one hurts more than anything
When they leave; they leave a black hole within you that begins to consume everything you've got left
The death of Paul Walker was a shock to everyone; his loved ones and his fans
But then again so is every death that occurs, we never think twice about what's going to happen after that because all we think about is how we've lost ourselves
We lose ourselves when we lose a loved one, we blame ourselves for not being able to stop it
Death is apart of our life cycle; it's apart of everything living thing's life cycle
However, we feel like we have it worse as we go through different stages of grieving
It's so unfortunate that we too start to think about not being here but being with the lost ones
Though it breaks the Creator's heart even more to witness his creation in pain and sorrow
Death is apart of life, it's the part that no matter how much it happens we'll never learn how to control it
But that's fine because you're allowed to cry for as many days as you want, eat a tub of ice cream with the whole family and friends
But what you're not allowed to do is feel like you're the only victim because darling, everyone around you is also a victim
Paul Walker - Honestly I've run out of words to say when it comes to death because everyone grieves differently and the words that I write happen out of remorse and angry
But for you, Walker, these are out of love, remorse and happiness because you were an absolute legend with fair skin, great hair and an exceptional smile
I found out about your departure when I woke up, I woke up to Rihanna's Instagram breaking your news to me
I thought it was a lie. The first stage grieving - Denial
I can't say that you've gone too soon but I can say that there's no way that anyone's gonna forget you
Though you played the good guy in Fast & Furious, don't forget you were also an idiot for pretending with Dom about not being a cop
But you know that's what made us love you more because you convinced him perfectly well and he believed you, but this he won't believe because you two were family
No matter how much we try to convince ourselves that we are immune to death's aftermaths, we are wrong
Death is the worst thing that can happen to any living or dormant thing
But you did leave too soon!
And it's tragic because we still had so much to ask you...
You were a gorgeous, exceptional Virgo.
Paul Walker
September 12, 1973 - November 30, 2013
"If one day the speed kills me, do not cry because I was smiling." P. Walker
OMG Suzanne Collins is truly an impeccable writer. The Hunger Games Trilogy have to some of the best books written in the last decade! Now I've read a few books the past weeks and I have discovered some incredible authors but today is all about Suzanne.
So yesterday I went to the cinema to watch Catching Fire (second book in the trilogy) and oh my gosh; fantastic everything! From the beginning to end. I'm not one to say that the second is better than first because I've read all three books and they are all extremely intriguing and seriously captivating.
I can't say anything more as I don't trust myself because I'm afraid that I'll reveal too much. But I strongly recommend that you read The Hunger Games Trilogy as well as watch the first two movies. The books are definitely worth reading because when Suzanne Collins' pen touched the paper, it created something truly unique that will go on to inspire others to do the same.
Here are the first two trailers:
The Hunger Games 2012
The Hunger Games: Catching Fire 2013
The Hunger Games: Mockingjay Part 1 will be out in 2014. So stayed tuned and May The Odds Be Ever In Your Favor.
Ughhh... growing up can be a struggle but who am I to say that. I'm loved. I'm sheltered. I'm provided for. Does that mean I can share my thoughts about post 16? Sure I can. Well here goes... I don't wanna grow up! I wanna go to Neverland and live with Peter Pan. It's exhausting looking and filling forms for sixth forms or colleges. Matter of fact, the options that I choose for the next two years; probably won't be what degree I choose for the university. I may not even go university, I mean I don't have (I kinda of have to) but I need to. Mainly because my mum wants what's best for me but want I'm saying is what I'm doing now isn't what I'm going to be in 4 years time let alone 10 years time because I don't know I'm want to so. For the moment, I'm just going to live in the present and enjoy it. There's only so much that I can do to make everyone happy.
Btw I have less than 7 months left of secondary school. Filled with exams and revision, my mum has stripped me of a social life. And I don't disagree because, after those dreadful months, I will have 3 months of summer holidays to have fun.
Go where you wanna study for the next two years. Pick the subjects that you love but know will make you cry in the term because of how difficult they are but you'll find a way around them. Make new friends that will last a lifetime but don't forget the old ones.
There's no one or nowhere that you can go and people don't know the initials JFK
Why? Because those are the initials are of someone great
Someone who dared to be different when everyone else refused
He was a hero to his nation and many
Though he was also a womanizer to some (I hope I don't get in trouble for saying that)
There are a few wrongs that JFK did
It's unfair that he didn't live long enough to witness his influence take change upon the world
The world still filled with shock and sadness
I watched his video today along with my class
I'm not one for watched horrific deaths and this is one that will haunt my dreams for years to come
Why do all the great leaders have to go before their time?
We are still haunted by his memories as we refuse to bury them because there's too much good in what he left us with
The fatal flaw that altered history
There are so many things to say about JFK
But not enough time to say them in, in a way for those who didn't know him but still loved him
I'll tell you something...
He was a President of a great nation, living like a child who had put his childish ways behind him
I know some people are heartless as they don't value other's lives
There's no doubt that this guy touched your hearts because you must have felt something when we lost him
Don't think of JFK and think about his flaws; think of his greatness
Think of him as he's still alive, more than he was and he will always be
Because that man changed the way we see each other right now
JFK ---> Energy, Optimism, Hope; it's the belief that a nation can accomplish anything
"There's a plot in this country to enslave every man, woman, and child. Before I leave this high and noble office, I intend to expose this plot." JFK - 7 days before his assassination
Lil Mama on the left, Keke Palmer in the middle and Drew Sidora on the right
I recently watched a film documentary about one of my all time favourite girl trio ---> TLC and it was unbelievably surreal! The documentary was based on how the girls came to be the ultimate girl group and the difficulties they faced throughout their journey.
Cast:
Keke Palmer as Rozonda Thomas aka Chilli
Niatia Kirkland aka Lil Mama as Lisa Lopes aka Left-Eye
Drew Sidora as Tionne Watkins aka T-Bonz
Rochelle Aytes as Perri Reid aka Pebbles
Evan Ross as Dallas Austin
Carl Anthony Payne II as Antonio 'L.A' Reid
Shaun Clay as Sean Combs aka Puffy
This was an excellent cast. The fact that the actors played their roles so well made me fall in love with TLC and their music all over again. Kept at their roots, knowing where they were headed. Independent. Headstrong. Loyal. I wish to be these things one day because if they could do it then I can. Then everyone else can.
Therefore this post is to say 'Thanks' to TLC for the music that they've presented to us because it will be here forever. They were 'MTB-Meant To Be' and in that result; they put together some implausible beats that they shared with us forever changing the world of music. There's more to come about TLC from me but what I really think you should do now is go watch this film. Seriously UNMISSABLE! It has definitely made its way into my favourite movies.
Crazy Sexy Cool: TLC Story
Original TLC group. Tionne in yellow, Lisa in blue and Rozonda in red. "Goodbye goodbye to all the fake people in my life, never wanted you around me so be on your way now. You better think twice before you let people in your life. When things are going down and no one is around, you, you got a case of the fake people." - Case Of The Fake People
You come upon alot of things whilst messing around on the internet. Here's a little that I nicked from JacksGap.com. I dare you to pretend sleep on the subway and fall asleep on a stranger's shoulder. See whether they'll allow it or not. This is a little experiment to see if the human race still possess a hint of humanity towards each other.
It's so marvelous how one picture can spark a whole movement.
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