2013 3ULOGY

India

So as 2013 is coming a draw and I've seen several of my friends make a 16-second video about some of their most memorable moments of this year. While some have written eulogies (which I think I'm doing...) I wanted to make some random remarks about 2013 and what I will or might do for 2014. This is totally honest, so if you disagree; feel free to do so. 

London

2013 has been an alright year, as so have the rest of they years before it. I mean when I'm told, to sum up, my year; I will often use words such as these: Shit, Crap, seriously F'ed Up!, Alright, could have been Better, Great... Why? Because I have this conspiracy that there will always be a good and bad side to every year, just like there's Good and Evil in the world. Therefore I don't like giving myself hope that things will be better even if I do believe that but somehow fail to believe it as well.

Moscow

When it comes to me, I'm seriously a hard person to comprehend. I don't like pitying myself about stuff like life is rough and the world is against me because everyone feels like that once in a while. I'm just me. I'm a typical person. I'm just like everyone else. There are so many things that I want to leave in the past because 2013 has been somewhat of a crappy year. I've lost and gained like everyone else in the world. I've loved and failed like everyone else. Therefore shutting people out because I've come to believe that being open and vulnerable is stupid advice people give you, just to hurt you. 

Malaysia

So there you go. That's my summary for 2013. As the year has passed, I have come to realize that there were some good times and bad times. However I'm not one to dwell on the past because I know from first hand what that can do to you, I'm slowly trying to recover from all the heartaches that 2013 has caused and it will be better soon. I promise. 

Hong Kong

As well for 2014, I don't have much to say but a few words.

Japan

"I'm doin' whatever the fuck I wanna do this year." Asap Rocky

Australia 

"If there's something on my mind, speak it. I got a big mouth. I can't help it. I talk from my heart. I'm real." Tupac

New Zealand

I'm immune to this whole new year, new me bullshit.

South Korea

It's The End As We Know It

2013 is officially coming to a close. And while it's delivered some great things and lost some great people, we have also learned lots of new things that we will hopefully take into 2014. 

4 things that I'm thankful for:

1. God. For everything and every day! 
2. My friends and family for their continuous support throughout every step of the way
3. The new people that have come into my life and hopeful their presence will affect me positively 
4. The future. Though I have no idea what's in front of me, I'm thankful that I'm able to have something to aim for.

2 things I'm living in the past: 

1. The  people that have made no difference in my life except put me down and judge me
2. The PAST...

4 things I'm looking forward to in 2014:

1. Turning 17 :) 
2. Finishing high school 
3. Making new relationships
4. Having fun even more and growing as a person, daughter, sister, friend etc

EMBRACE 

N.I.G.G.A.Z

So it's last day on earth and you're asked, "who are the last two artists you want to listen to before the aliens invade?" (That's if there's another form of life other than us!)  Don't blame me for having an overactive imagination, so who are the last two artists you'd listen to. 

TUPAC SHAKUR 

California Love 

Coachella 2012 

Hit Em Up

Only God Can Judge Me

JIMI HENDRIX

Foxey Lady

Hey Joe

Angel

All Along The Watchtower

                         .              Who did you choose? I chose Tupac and Hendrix because I feel like their music is able to explain my every emotion, no matter what mood I'm in. These are artists that I constantly look for inspiration when it comes to my music and they do help. It's a tragedy that I'll never get to meet them.

Je Suis Désolé

I'm yours and you know it. We tried and failed. We should've seen it coming but we didn't. I'm sorry for this. I'm really am. I know that we are used to telling each other everything. We love challenging each other because it brings out the best in us. But we've slipped through each other's fingers and we aren't in sync anymore. I will miss you.  

I'm afraid that once I let go, I'll never be able to find you causing me to lose myself. I'm afraid that once we go our separate ways, I'll be alone again which will destroy me completely.

Homeroot Music --> Uganda, Africa

I'm don't think that I speak much about my roots but I definitely enjoy blasting out the music! So I thought I would invite you in a bit and share a bit on me with you; which will come more in 2014 as well. 

Badilisha - Dr Jose Chameleon

Biriba Bitya - Pastor Wilson Bugembe

 Twakutegede - Eagles Productions

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"I detest racialism, because I regard it as a barbaric thing, whether it comes from a black man or a white man." N. Mandela

If I could do anything you know that I would, but this is just too much for words

Of all people that have left us this year, I always thought that you'd never go

You'd live plentiful years to watch your nations prosperous 

To sum up this year, I say that this year has been crap!

We have lost so many great people but your loss has been the greatest

And you know what? 

I'm sick of this! I'm tired of writing all these goodbye letters because we were not ready to let you go! 

The world has lost a son, brother, father but mostly a Leader

You've done so much for us and I hope we made you proud in return because we've had the utter most respect for you unlike anyone else

People such as you are incredibly rare in a world like this

But I know that you're now at peace and even better;

You're home with your creator but you have left us in heartache

Nelson, you held one of the world's most inspirational stories 

It doesn't matter what happens from on here because you have left a supreme legacy behind

It has no wrongs nor room for improvement because you gave your life for the unknowns

You no longer belong to us.

You belong to the ages as the children that come after us will be touched by you and live on to tell their generation

You are our liberator, our own son, father and rescuer 

You lived a simple life but carried our sufferings along with you

Educated us on what was right and what was wrong, though we should have known better

We will never truly comprehend the level of strength that it took you to endure many of your years 

You stood for justice and honour

Nothing more, nothing less

We have lost a great soul and for a minute we saw that we had lost a great light 

Of course, we knew that your time was coming, but there were so many signs of hope that we didn't want to believe that it would be this soon

You're being a Freedom fighter, Prisoner, President, and a Global Icon

I'm sure that no one can imagine their life without the example that you've set

You were never one for wanting anything in return

Maybe that's why this hurts even more

God saw that your time with us was done, though we may not agree with it now; we'll learn to come to terms with it

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You are gone but will never be forgotten

"There is no easy walk to freedom anywhere, and many of us will have to pass through the valley of the shadow of death again and again before we reach the mountaintop of our desires." N. Mandela 

18 July 1918 - 5 December 2013 

Paul Walker - Brian O'Conner

Quiet In My Town - Civil Twilight

They say that when you first hear of death, it hits you like a ton of bricks

It almost seems like the impossible is suddenly possible and it's staying there

Though the death of a loved one hurts more than anything

When they leave; they leave a black hole within you that begins to consume everything you've got left 

The death of Paul Walker was a shock to everyone; his loved ones and his fans

But then again so is every death that occurs, we never think twice about what's going to happen after that because all we think about is how we've lost ourselves

We lose ourselves when we lose a loved one, we blame ourselves for not being able to stop it

Death is apart of our life cycle; it's apart of everything living thing's life cycle

However, we feel like we have it worse as we go through different stages of grieving

  It's so unfortunate that we too start to think about not being here but being with the lost ones

Though it breaks the Creator's heart even more to witness his creation in pain and sorrow

Death is apart of life, it's the part that no matter how much it happens we'll never learn how to control it

But that's fine because you're allowed to cry for as many days as you want, eat a tub of ice cream with the whole family and friends

But what you're not allowed to do is feel like you're the only victim because darling, everyone around you is also a victim

Paul Walker - Honestly I've run out of words to say when it comes to death because everyone grieves differently and the words that I write happen out of remorse and angry

But for you, Walker, these are out of love, remorse and happiness because you were an absolute legend with fair skin, great hair and an exceptional smile 

I found out about your departure when I woke up, I woke up to Rihanna's Instagram breaking your news to me

I thought it was a lie. The first stage grieving - Denial  

I can't say that you've gone too soon but I can say that there's no way that anyone's gonna forget you

Though you played the good guy in Fast & Furious, don't forget you were also an idiot for pretending with Dom about not being a cop

But you know that's what made us love you more because you convinced him perfectly well and he believed you, but this he won't believe because you two were family

No matter how much we try to convince ourselves that we are immune to death's aftermaths, we are wrong

Death is the worst thing that can happen to any living or dormant thing

But you did leave too soon! 

And it's tragic because we still had so much to ask you...

You were a gorgeous, exceptional Virgo.

Paul Walker

September 12, 1973 - November 30, 2013

"If one day the speed kills me, do not cry because I was smiling." P. Walker 

The Hunger Games Trilogy

OMG Suzanne Collins is truly an impeccable writer. The Hunger Games Trilogy have to some of the best books written in the last decade! Now I've read a few books the past weeks and I have discovered some incredible authors but today is all about Suzanne.

So yesterday I went to the cinema to watch Catching Fire (second book in the trilogy) and oh my gosh; fantastic everything! From the beginning to end. I'm not one to say that the second is better than first because I've read all three books and they are all extremely intriguing and seriously captivating.

I can't say anything more as I don't trust myself because I'm afraid that I'll reveal too much. But I strongly recommend that you read The Hunger Games Trilogy as well as watch the first two movies. The books are definitely worth reading because when Suzanne Collins' pen touched the paper, it created something truly unique that will go on to inspire others to do the same.

Here are the first two trailers:

The Hunger Games 2012

The Hunger Games: Catching Fire 2013

The Hunger Games: Mockingjay Part 1 will be out in 2014. So stayed tuned and May The Odds Be Ever In Your Favor. 

Post 16

Ughhh... growing up can be a struggle but who am I to say that. I'm loved. I'm sheltered. I'm provided for. Does that mean I can share my thoughts about post 16? Sure I can. Well here goes... I don't wanna grow up! I wanna go to Neverland and live with Peter Pan. It's exhausting looking and filling forms for sixth forms or colleges. Matter of fact, the options that I choose for the next two years; probably won't be what degree I choose for the university. I may not even go university, I mean I don't have (I kinda of have to) but I need to. Mainly because my mum wants what's best for me but want I'm saying is what I'm doing now isn't what I'm going to be in 4 years time let alone 10 years time because I don't know I'm want to so. For the moment, I'm just going to live in the present and enjoy it. There's only so much that I can do to make everyone happy.

Btw I have less than 7 months left of secondary school. Filled with exams and revision, my mum has stripped me of a social life. And I don't disagree because, after those dreadful months, I will have 3 months of summer holidays to have fun.

Go where you wanna study for the next two years. Pick the subjects that you love but know will make you cry in the term because of how difficult they are but you'll find a way around them. Make new friends that will last a lifetime but don't forget the old ones. 

50 Years Since JFK

There's no one or nowhere that you can go and people don't know the initials JFK

Why? Because those are the initials are of someone great

Someone who dared to be different when everyone else refused

He was a hero to his nation and many

Though he was also a womanizer to some (I hope I don't get in trouble for saying that)

There are a few wrongs that JFK did

It's unfair that he didn't live long enough to witness his influence take change upon the world

The world still filled with shock and sadness

I watched his video today along with my class

I'm not one for watched horrific deaths and this is one that will haunt my dreams for years to come

Why do all the great leaders have to go before their time?

We are still haunted by his memories as we refuse to bury them because there's too much good in what he left us with

The fatal flaw that altered history 

There are so many things to say about JFK

But not enough time to say them in, in a way for those who didn't know him but still loved him

I'll tell you something...

He was a President of a great nation, living like a child who had put his childish ways behind him

I know some people are heartless as they don't value other's lives

There's no doubt that this guy touched your hearts because you must have felt something when we lost him

Don't think of JFK and think about his flaws; think of his greatness

Think of him as he's still alive, more than he was and he will always be

Because that man changed the way we see each other right now

JFK ---> Energy, Optimism, Hope; it's the belief that a nation can accomplish anything

"There's a plot in this country to enslave every man, woman, and child. Before I leave this high and noble office, I intend to expose this plot." JFK - 7 days before his assassination 

Remembering JFK 

May 29, 1917 - November 22, 1963

CrazySexyCool: The TLC Story

Lil Mama on the left, Keke Palmer in the middle and Drew Sidora on the right

I recently watched a film documentary about one of my all time favourite girl trio ---> TLC and it was unbelievably surreal! The documentary was based on how the girls came to be the ultimate girl group and the difficulties they faced throughout their journey.  

Cast:

1. Keke Palmer as Rozonda Thomas aka Chilli
2. Niatia Kirkland aka Lil Mama as Lisa Lopes aka Left-Eye
3. Drew Sidora as Tionne Watkins aka T-Bonz
4. Rochelle Aytes as Perri Reid aka Pebbles
5. Evan Ross as Dallas Austin
6. Carl Anthony Payne II as Antonio 'L.A' Reid
7. Shaun Clay as Sean Combs aka Puffy 

 This was an excellent cast. The fact that the actors played their roles so well made me fall in love with TLC and their music all over again. Kept at their roots, knowing where they were headed. Independent. Headstrong. Loyal. I wish to be these things one day because if they could do it then I can. Then everyone else can. 

Therefore this post is to say 'Thanks' to TLC for the music that they've presented to us because it will be here forever. They were 'MTB-Meant To Be' and in that result; they put together some implausible beats that they shared with us forever changing the world of music. There's more to come about TLC from me but what I really think you should do now is go watch this film. Seriously UNMISSABLE! It has definitely made its way into my favourite movies.

Crazy Sexy Cool: TLC Story

Original TLC group. Tionne in yellow, Lisa in blue and Rozonda in red.

"Goodbye goodbye to all the fake people in my life, never wanted you around me so be on your way now. You better think twice before you let people in your life. When things are going down and no one is around, you, you got a case of the fake people." - Case Of The Fake People 

   

Try Out Experiment

You come upon alot of things whilst messing around on the internet. Here's a little that I nicked from JacksGap.com. I dare you to pretend sleep on the subway and fall asleep on a stranger's shoulder. See whether they'll allow it or not. This is a little experiment to see if the human race still possess a hint of humanity towards each other. 

It's so marvelous how one picture can spark a whole movement. 

Sleeping On Strangers On The Subway - Charidy

Remembrance Day

It's like we'll never stop 

Never stop enduring heartache, suffering, and death

But there's a silver lining in all that, you see

We are provided with love, the greatest thing of all and we take it for granted

We've lost and gained so much but today trumps everything the world has ever faced

Today is the day that we reminisce about the heroes that are finally asleep

So let's have no sorrow nor tears but hearts filled with joy and gratitude

We humans are known for pondering about the negative rather than the positive

 However, you get no decisions today because it's not your day

They gave their lives so that we might live

They have marked themselves amongst the stars to watch over us

As we have marked ourselves upon the earth to remember them

But see little ones, we've all been on the sphere for too long and you know it's true

We've seen the sun come out to play and go to sleep, stayed out past our curfew to feel the night breeze

On this day, fearless soldiers lined up for us for freedom and pride

 But not all of them came back to us 

And the ones who returned to us...were...

The fallen lie peacefully in those Flanders fields 

Witnessing one of Mother Nature's greatest gift, red poppies grew for them

They didn't want them to be forgotten, so we remember them now

For that we shall not break our faith in them, we give them a minute of silence

Mother Nature is their security blanket now, shielding them from the cold with the poppies

Dear nation or world, we've bounced back from far worse but not this because we haven't fully healed yet

We've been taught to love and now they lie

For we know where we came from and where we are headed, so what reason is there to fear

For the poppies that grow now will grow for years to come as they are a sign for those valiant comrades 

We've have been taught to love and now they lie

In the Flanders fields protected by the poppies, safely they lie

It's the Eleventh day 

Of the Eleventh month

Of the Eleventh hour