I'm Still Me Because You Were You

I'm still me because you were you.
I could count the countless memories we made simply looking up into the sky, wishing that we could shine like the stars shone.
I'm still me because, during my darkest days, you were my helping hand 
Never fleeing from danger but rather heading towards it head first, with blank minds 
A little bruised from all the jumps we tried to make but failed.
But it never stopped us. Nothing ever could. 
I'm still me because, despite every time we got mad at each other, we never wanted to be far from each other.
I knew of nothing else so beautiful than the friendship you offered me and I didn't want to.
We were these gigantic messes filled with naivety and so many dreams.
And like every naive child, we thought we were invincible thinking that the world rotated around us.
But we were very wrong.
Twenty-four months ago, I would have said that our friendship was destined to be infinite.
I can't say that now...not that I was ever good at speaking.
So I'm writing about it.
It's been a year and I'm still here.
I'm still me without you.
A little grazed, a little restless from life but I'm persistent
A few months ago, we set off to Somerset with some friends like we do every year.
And I swear during that week time stood still while we enjoyed ourselves.
We were no longer confined to the expectations of society nor those of our families.
We stayed up until 2am playing midnight cricket, laughing and playing music.
But like all good things, it came to an end and suddenly, everything was alien to me, once more.
I have now come to realize that life is not for everyone, and no, I don't mean it like that.
I'm still me because of more than anything in the world, I want to see you conquer your dreams.
But every once in a while, the past creeps back in and lets me know what was lost.
And it's hard to learn, that this is your new path in existence.
I'm learning to embrace it because this doesn't define me.
While we grew tired of each other.
We were awakened to new loves, and of course, I do have days where I'm overwhelmed by my sudden losses.
But I'm still me because you were still you.
I'm still me because our friendship was like no other. 
Now, I'm discovering how to be me, without you.
And that for the time being, while I catch my breath, we are going separate ways, each becoming our own person.
I know that this is not where we end.
Like everyone else, I was thrown into life head first, no map and a blank mind.
I chose you because you understood me more than anyone.
I'm still me because you were you,

Until the end.