S...14/12/14

But really, I just hate the fact that we've been friends for so long and now we can't even say 'hi' to each other

We went from everyday texting to nothing, unless I built up the courage to ask you 'how you were doing...' 

And I can't even look you in the eye or let myself be near you for more than 2 minutes without my mind racing back through the memories

You were the one person that I thought I was going to have around forever;

You told me yourself that you'd always be there for me and I for you

I shouldn't be sad because life doesn't always go according to plan,

Hell, you taught me that...

I saw it in your eyes; the last day we were alone for the last time
After that, you simply just disappeared...
You stopped making appearances or checking up on me, leaving me to put in the effort

Things were changing but I was just too naive to see that I was no longer the person you were going to stay up all night texting 

So, let's face it... we're not friends anymore

I used to never let myself get close to people but I couldn't keep that with you

We've been through so much...but fcuk it

I'm going to give you up for my own good, I'm going to find a new friend for myself 

I'm going to learn to let myself be vulnerable again and find someone to tell all my secrets to once more

However, it's only fair that I keep our 'mutual' friend's wish and tolerate you when I see you

Because maybe...we'll be friends again...Maybe

But for now, I'm moving on with life and finally accepting that we are now just...

Strangers with some memories