Letters To People I Love: Today Is Life

This was not the intended result for this post. But something terrible happened yesterday and I thought that this was a more deserving title for my outcome. 

Dedicated to the victims of Manchester. You are/were so much more than this! 

today is life 

today is sorrow

an elegy for today

ode to Manchester

for your hurt and pain 

while thinking of you

i know you to be more than just beings 

today is life 

today is sorrow 

an elegy for today 

i think of so much 

of the atrocities inflicted on us

by the cowardliness of humans with no respect for us 

i think of the lines blurred 

contaminated and destroyed 

is this all we will ever be? 

all that we capable of as humans? 

today is life 

today is sorrow 

an elegy for today 

i think of Manchester

of lives invaded 

innocence stole and the unkempt traitor 

some of you will never live to see your future 

some of you will never know that horror that we live in 

i perceive the second one to be a blessing   

today is life 

today is sorrow 

an elegy for today 

i think of normalcy 

which I no longer recognise 

security invaded 

this is sadness

like we've never known before

this is for the souls taken from us  

i long to immortalise you 

to keep you young and naive 

today is life 

today is sorrow 

an elegy for today 

it matters 

you matter 

we have been through worse 

nothing like this of course 

but we can overcome 

i urge you to cry

to scream and shout as loud as you can 

this will be our rebirth 

we will raise our young generation to be more than this  

the generation that was betrayed

we have done this once 

we can do it again 
i am sorry the world could not keep you safe
i am sorry that we could not keep you safe 

today is life 

today is sorrow 

an elegy for today 
ode to Manchester

Tales Of An 8 Year Old to A 19 Year Old On Your Mother

my mother deserves the world 
if not the world, then she deserves the next best thing 
the unselfish, uncontested and undeniable love of her children 
because the love of those five children, the ones that she was nice enough to give birth to will be far more valuable than anything else in the world when things fall apart 
because things will fall apart
for her and for her children

my mother deserves the world 
if not the world, then she deserves the next best thing 
the unselfish, uncontested and undenied love of her children 
because I have never known anyone else so selfless 
someone who has done everything possible to give her children all that they desired 
someone who has made the sacrifice to take on extra life draining hours, just so that we can go on our pricey trips 
and doing so as a single mother raising five impossible children 
five children with five different personalities and five different tempers 
you'd never think that our relationship at times has been a turbulent one 
because on our good days, we seem to put on facades 
but they are not 
because the love that we have for our mother is like no other 

my mother deserves the world 
if not, the world then she deserves the next best thing
the unselfish, uncontested and undenied love of her children 
and that will be enough for me 
and hopefully, for her too

boys

be good to her 
she's rare

all girls are 

E.S.

i am having a tough time. 

and i have found that whenever i am going through something big, impossible or difficult, writing to you makes me feel better. it makes me feel like we are still friends, even though we are not. but i don't care. 

even if it's just a few words, like this. 

i know that this is something that can never be taken from me, from us. and even if you may never receive these weirdly crafted and thought letters, i hope you know how much you still mean to me. because regardless of the fact, that you stopped being my friend...i want you to know that you never stopped being mine.

well, that all i have for now. 
i am feeling a lot better now. 

thanks, i guess