I Fear This Life

i fear this life
the lived yet incomplete journey
as day as day
i become someone else, someone new
i don't think i want to live an ordinary life
i am scared of what i might think or feel when i look back
i am scared that i won't like it
and i am scared that others will judge me for not living life, my way
regardless of the fact that they continue to judge me for living life, my way