The Great Unknown

Stressed. Exhausted. Scared.

It's more of a rant and my unrevised, unedited thoughts at 4am than a senseful post.

It's time, guys! For some of us, this is our last exams before university. Others have another year, two years and so on. Though I've tired to avoid it because I know that when I step into that exam, I know that the next 4 years of my life will be determined by those exams. Something that I think it's utter bullshit! It's saddening that my place at Leicester will be based on my grades and that terrifies me.

Hi Cameron, Osborne, you do reason that the majority of us don't go Eton, right!?! If we don't excel in these worthless exams, we can't bribe our way into a secure life, like so many of your kind have. You've destroyed the true definition of learning.

To be honest, I'm stuck. I'm not allowed to say that we've got this because we don't. The mere fact that we are sold the false dream that working hard in school and good results ensure that we will have a great life, depresses me. How many graduates do you see rolling around in million dollars bills straight outta of university? None! The whole "university guarantees you a good life" is the British version of the American dream.

I mean, hell I'm going university. Well, that's if I get the grades, which I'm so desperately working to get. Cutting off my friends and social life just so I can get the first 2 letters of the alphabets. And if I'm lucky enough and if my hard work pays off or the damn government doesn't screw with our exam structures once again; maybe I can prove those fake teachers wrong and get all As.

This is the great unknown. The race to prove that you're the best. That those who apply to Russell groups are smarter. But that, not the case! This is the race to prove that all the names that they called you weren't true. To prove that you are not stupid, slow and that some universities are way better than the Russell groups for your course. This is the final race where you get to show that despite all those shitty government interventions, you weren't thrown off course.