My AS Results

English Literature - D
History - C
Government & Politics - E
BTEC Music - Unknown

So let me start off by clearing some things up: 

1. I know that I didn't work as hard as I should have in AS
2. I didn't expect to get As or Bs, however, I am as hell as know that I don't deserve a stinking 'E' in Politics
3. This is not a rant about people getting better grades than me because I know they worked their asses off 

I've been up since 2am since this morning...I had acknowledged that there might be tears because something always fucks up when it comes to me expecting any kind of results. I didn't expect to see As on my paper but I'm irritated that I got an E in politics! Irritated isn't even the word. 

I put so much work into politics. I did EVER damn past paper and I was doing well in my mocks. So obviously I was more than shocked to find out that I had got an E, not even a D that would've enabled me to carry on the subject. I got a shitty grade that resulted in me bawling for a good 10 minutes! It was the one subject that I put in a shit load of effort because it was new for me. Unfortunately for me, it seriously doesn't help when you've got 3 older siblings who've paved a path for you to follow and a younger sibling that you've gotta set an example for. The minute I got home after spending a reasonable amount of time standing in the rain; I got into a heated argument with my oldest brother about whether or not I wanted to continue on with my education. 

I get that he's looking out for me and truly wants the best for me. I appreciate that. I really do. He's gotta realize that sometimes I don't need his preaching or comparison to other people but rather a brother to talk to. Though for the meantime, I'm just looking forward to getting my papers back and seeing where I went wrong or maybe ask for a remark. The truth is I'm going to university but that's an issue that I've been contemplating for a while now.

Nevertheless, I understand that I wasn't the only one who wasn't pleased with their results. My friend's class didn't do too well in Psychology and I know that for a fact, my friend's class has some of the cleverest people I know. It was uncalled for to push up grade boundaries because the country was doing well. So well done, you shitheads, you've just eradicated tons of futures! 

Furthermore, I was offered an option; retake my year 12 politics and stay another year suggesting that I would be in year 14 finishing my A2 politics. Although I would also have had to pick up 2 more a levels, thus leaving sixth form with 5 A levels. And yes, I would have an advantage there but that's not part of my plans! Believe me when I say, there's nothing wrong with repeating a year; however, I've already figured my school life. It took me 17 years to do so. I don't wanna backtrack.

Moreover what I'm frustrated at is the fact that this bloody government has the decency to measure our intelligence with a test and when we fail; we are considered failures.I have disagreements with my brother all the time but when it comes to my education; the outcome of the disagreement could result in days of not talking. Hence indicating that we aren't talking from today onwards...

There are reasons why some of us excel in schools and some don't. You can't expect everyone to do well after you've restricted their creativeness. Now my friends are transferring to other sixth forms/colleges because they can't reach a compromise with the teachers. It's understandable that when we fail, we aren't the only ones who fail because our teachers feel like they've failed too (sometimes, hopefully). However, such results can do more than break a kid.

I had to stop feeling sorry for myself because I had to comfort my friends. It's undeniable that we worked our asses off and you robbed us of our true effort. Stop thinking about what other countries will think of you; you are still being shunned because you are raising a failing generation. We took Michael Gove down because he was screwing with our system. Now whoever decided to increase the grade boundaries, I hope that you got what you wanted. 

It seems like all my friends are rethinking university. Anyway, who wants to come out with a 55 grand debt!?! 

As for me...I'm unsure what my next step is. I was feeling inspired to start my personal  statement, but then again my results for exactly scream "secure place" or "unconditional offer". What I know for certain...

1. Whether I'm staying at SFH6 or dropping out and for that matter if I do continue if I should go to university
2. If I do end up staying, I am not staying at SFH6 for year 14. I only committed to 2 years of sixth form, nothing more and nothing less.
3. Stopping my 'school' education here doesn't mean that I stop learning.

P.s Congratulations to all of you that did well and those that didn't get the grades that you feel you deserved. At least you tried, therefore no one should criticize you. There's 2016 to make up for it.

There is so much more that one can accomplish without having an education or a further education for that matter. This generation running the country may not be able to comprehend it but I'm sure my generation does. 

I will do my best to finish my education, though.