him.

this is a poem, I'm writing 
I'm writing because I'm hurt 
i'm hurt because we aren't talking
and it hurts
it hurts because i miss you
but it will hurt more if i don't let you go

me.

i refuse to go back to who i was
to not liking who i was


i deserve life
i deserve more of it

-48

we were never in love. 

and I don't blame you. 

we were mere beginners in our own lives.

still trying to navigate our own dreams. 

the simplest definition being

- we were still kids. 

we didn't know what love was.

but damn I wish we had been.

what a hell of a journey it would've been. 

-48 

forgotten misft travels: letters from fiji to i. r. taylor

it's been an exhilarating yet draining journey 

not for all the wrong reasons but for all the right ones 

because never in my nineteen years on this round sphere did I ever think that I'd finally set for in fiji 

with a group of well enough humans 

who are in the same stage of life as I 

it's been life changing 

and while some of us will return to our lives 

we will return to normality too and in doing so

we will forget naduri

we will forget the community that now considers us family 

we will forget the friends we've made

not because we want to but because like all the great adventures in life 

they disintegrate from our memories  

and that's what will become of fiji 

we will forget 

...

i won't forget naduri

i really hope I won't 

because I have all these aspirations 

of being on a constant and never ending adventure

of meeting interesting people 

and eating interesting foods 

naduri has made this clear for me 

this is what I want my life to be about 

because there is much more to life than what western society teaches/forces down our throats 

...

this is my first letter from my travels

it's the first in the series of travelling to phenomenal places 

from which I learnt that I can achieve happiness by not having it all 

where I are taught and encouraged to be in love in life 

instead of yearning for the next big thing

...

with less than what is expected 

with less than what society expects of us