It's uncertain kind of emotion
Filled with unsureness and doubt
With the pain and suicidal thoughts that should fill my mind after you break me
Yet they have made their presence now
You have yet to make the step of touching me
Of filling my mind, soul, and body with lies
Like how you will not be there when those three special words leave your mouth
You will be too busy seeking the warmth of my best friend
But like the naive girl that I am and because I so desperately crave your love
I will believe you
Because while young love is fleeting
It is the ever so most powerful and temporary emotion
In it
We learn that love, itself is a whole and we are merely pieces
I will choose to ignore the signs
Because the butterflies that flutter around in my stomach tell a different story
It will take me a while to learn that
When a boy tells you he loves you
It will be the first time that you hear those words
In the moments that follow and yes, I mean moments
Not days, weeks nor months
You will be made aware of the inconsistency that is to begin
You will learn that there is no such thing as "getting used to the pain"
oh i fucked up and did not save my final thoughts
