I Never Let Myself Need Anyone

I never let myself need anyone because I can't bear to show how weak I am

It's not about me being weak but I've always questioned myself about the choices I've made

I've come to believe that there's just so little hope left in this dysfunction world 

It's become so rare that you hear on the news something positive, something wonderful 

The souls that have been injured, the ones that have been rejected now wander endless heading towards a black hole

There's just so much injustice in this world, however, we can't allow ourselves to adapt to this sickening lifestyle

I'm not sure where I've gone wrong but lately, I've been finding it hard to trust and find something to believe in

Of course, everyone feels several kinds of pain and no one really knows what the other feels

Fact is that this world has digested too much darkness and at this rate, finding the way back has never been as hard as it is now

The sad thing about the darkness is that it comes in such a rush, it's impossible to see it until it's claimed a victim 

I mean, I'm a mess right now and I don't think anyone realizes that

 Sure the people that care about you are going to try and protect you from the unhappy thoughts that fill your mind

But what if they can't? What if they end up disappointing you every time you put your heart on the line? What do you do then? 

We live in a furious, eerie yet exquisite and ordinary world

In spite of this, I fear that we've lost the true beauty of the world and we are here obliterating our own kind because of the guilt we feel

I never let myself need anyone because we are all roaming around the world aimless without a clue 

In the end, I can't hide the fact that we are all disoriented humans seeking for help